Forgotten Sanctuary

2011-12-09T02:01:00.000+08:00

remember that i once had a blog www.hopeful-hopeless.blogspot.com?

guess what? someone actually took the address after i deleted it.

lolness.

granpa is sick

2011-12-06T00:03:00.001+08:00

do you have to make me feel like there's nothing left of me?

i've been really down lately.
My granpa was part of the reason.

After i'm back from travelling, my granpa was sick. Well not sick, how should i say it. Half of his face suddenly can't function properly anymore. His mouth muscles are not working, and his eyes can't be closed properly. I think he can't sense as well, I'm not very sure since he doesn't talk much ever since the trauma begins, even if we asked him N time already. Pretty much like sequela of stroke, but he don't have stroke. Anyways, the doctors said it was the problem of the nerve, wat the nerve of the half of the face snapped so he can't alter it. It can be healed, which takes at least about 2-6 months for the process. However, that's not the main problem. I don't know what happened to my granpa, maybe feeling hopeless, or he thinks that he got a cancer, or he will be cacat like that for the rest of the life, WE JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT IS HE THINKING. He started not to eat, sleep, or even bath. Yes, no matter how we tam him, how my granny scold him, like whatever, HE JUST WON'T DO A DAMN NORMAL THING. ou yea, u think this is nothing? Imagine whole family is eating out, including relatives, like about 10 ppl. then there was 4-5 adult keep tam an old guy to eat, then the rest just sitting at there staring those adult tam their old granpa to eat. BUT HE STILL WON'T EAT A DAMN THING!! come on la, is it that hard for you to swallow a spoonful of rice?? IS IT THAT HARD???? He just keep saying NO! NO! when we ask him to eat, then when we asked him why not, he just keep queit, then sometimes he will say, what for? Ok la maybe he thinks that eating food, especially rice wont't help him from recovering so he wont eat, but what la, eat liao also won't harm u 1 ma! If you wan't me to say it in a more ugly way, if you think u're going to ngek edy, then eat as much as you can before u ngek! don't live a regretful life! ok back to the story. Then when he beh tahan we keep questioning him, he just stand up and walk away. walao, in a restaurant he also like dat. what can i say any futher?? I'm not afraid of tosoi la, in fact there's quite a lot of people staring at us when we are doing the tam-ing process, but what la so many people worried of you, my granny even cried because of you won't eat anything, and some of my aunt even fly here from kuching specially to visit you because they heard what happend. It's not like one or two meal already, it's every meal ever since the trauma begun. I'm really tired to watch my parents and granny taking care of him, it's like far more tiring than taking care of a naughty child.Well at he end he still will eat a lil thing la, like a few spoonful of rice, some fishy, still some fishy. Yes, he likes fish very much, which i also dunno why. Sometimes he just eat fish, without rice. then sometime he just eat plain rice, without any dish. uhh.

Ok, that's the eating problem. then there was bathing and sleeping problem. same nan gao. bah. imagine bah.

It need a lot of patient to take care of him, which obviously Im seriously lacking of that element. Dat's why I ended up bursting my anger here. I will try though, not to get angry at him anymore. God, please give me the wisdom and patient on how to treat my granpa, and hopefuly he'll be healed soon.

hey hey!

2011-11-14T02:31:00.000+08:00

hey hey!
Do you still remember?
those time when we chit chat until late night, until i'm too tired and eventually end up sleeping
then i'll wake up in the middle of the night and send u a msg apologizing for my tersleep.
ahhh those time, what a memories =)

hey hey!
Do you remember?
those time when we run to central to shop, even though it is suck.
sometimes we even dare to take a taxi to go downtown.
we're just poor student dat time hahaha
but for me, i was happy in those days

hey hey!
Do you remember?
those days when we're performing on a same stage
we spent days for practising, having fun at the same time
all the preparation are worth when we heard d audience claps for our effort
ahhhh, those bitter sweet memories =)

hey hey!
old friends, how are you lately?
I seriously lost contact with some of you already.
but now when im reminising the old days
I'll miss you guys so much.
lets hangout someday. =)

2010-12-25T01:31:00.002+08:00

hoho..gonna using back this blog since im currently not being a kiwi ==

Merry christmas everyone!

well, did enjoy the chirsmas eve last night at my church, since im finally not incharged in doing any horrifying jobs anymore=D but, it's quite sad to see the fact that i've only left this place for not more than a year, but things and people just changed. I used to hangout with a few people that are around my age, but now i still have no idea why things will be messed up like this. One busying with her lover, I don't blame that, but the other one, its like she just step out from my gang edy. I tried to talk to her, but just..its weird..but gah, im glad that those younger ones and rachel are still almost the same. I only can conclude that things became quite complicated after i went to nz. haiz.

anyways, gonna go to marcy's open house today. Hell excited as i din get a chance to see her ever since i left kk. WOOHOO. but damn i just had a farking haircut and i don't really felt like hanging out ever since i had that hair cut ==

ARGH..its 2am now..i've been keep sleeping quite late lately...and waking up quite early. Laptop's fault!! :p tata~

2010-01-21T09:14:00.003+08:00

http://siwikagnieb.blogspot.com/

bye bye..

2010-01-19T14:17:00.004+08:00

飛機的終站我旅程的起點

Farewell, my friends...

sien holiday..

2010-01-06T23:11:00.002+08:00

GOD!! I read 1200++ pages of comic in an aftertoon.
Holidays sure is sienz T.T...

Avatar

2009-12-27T20:09:00.004+08:00

Watched Avatar with my church's sisters just now. Like everyone said, its really nice! Although..the blue things is kinda ugly hahaha. But i still like it very much, 10/10!

.

2009-12-26T18:17:00.003+08:00

Saw him today.
After 2 years of waiting, I finally get a chance to see him.
My friend always saw him in shopping mall, but not me.
And now, finally?
He's with another girl, but that's nothing to do with me.
The thing is, he seems like doesn't recognise me at all.
Izit because of my new strange look?
or just purely, he forgot about me.
yea, whatever.

2009-12-24T22:28:00.003+08:00

How's Christmas Eve?

meaningless.

How's Christmas?

well, going to be meaningless.

I HATE MY JOB.

new look

2009-12-24T18:46:00.004+08:00

I just don't understand why everytime i tell the barber 'cut the way u like' and they COMFORM will cut the Egypt hair for me. Do I look like pharoah?! Mercy me please =.=|||

combined with my new geek spec, now i totally look like a geek T.T

outing

2009-12-23T22:38:00.001+08:00

Went to watch ninja assassin with some of my pals just now. [Nana, Marcy, Phyllis, Daren and Keele] Comment? Well, nice for those who like violence and brutal, or for those who like bloods explode like volcanoes. I mean, EWW ok?! It disgusted me a lots. All i did is closing my eyes and ears from watching and hearing those disgusting scenes. I even accidently poured over the popcorn. ZZZ. But still, Rain's eight pax is SEXY! right na? ;) hehehe...

Well, its a nice outing with my friends. It's been a while since i really shop with them. Bought some clothes and books, and also PC game F.E.A.R2! I played F.E.A.R before, and its kinda nice :) Well leave that to a side, i fell down on the stairs at Warisan square when searching for dinner. Shot, my butts hurt a lot lol =.= I bet Rain's so called father in the movie will ask me "u called that pain?" and give a hard hit on my stomach. ouch =.=

just a short update. till then, bye.

。

2009-12-10T01:38:00.002+08:00

如果不是那些事的话，我应该也会变得像你那么臭屁吧
是好，还是不好呢？
因为你不用经历我的痛
可是你也不会成长。
有好也有坏吧。
因为你那个年龄，不适合。
而我，随便吧。
都过去了。

chain msg

2009-12-07T22:09:00.003+08:00

well, i bet everyone is biting their chemistry reference book hardly now, but for me, im still watching japanese drama 'GTO' on pps. what spm, what exams, what straight A's, what loser only aiming 5A, I don't give it a damn anymore. Let me be, i just want to enjoy when i could. After some days, I'll go after a place i dunno whether it is Hell or Heaven. Well, some of you might cursing me now, like 'why the laziest person get the best opportunity to study overseas?!'. Right, i heard much of it. I don't know whether should i just laugh over it or get mad. when i laugh over it, i feel kesian for myself; if i get mad, they'll say im small gas again. Its hard being a human, especially a chinese. They're sensitive and do a lot of cruel thing when they're beh song. sigh, why would i born as a chinese =.=

well, this is not the main thing i wan to talk about in this post.

the thing is...
just please, im begging you guys to STOP sending chain msg to me.
It's ok if you send those like : 'if you don't send this to 10ppl in 10 seconds, you'll die immediately.'

zzzz
I DON'T CARE IF I DIE.
plus, u tot i'm god ar, 10second to forward msg to 10 ppl, YOU FOWARD LA!

or those :'if you don't send this, you'll be virgin forever'

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!
I DON'T CARE IF I'LL BE VIRGIN FOREVER OK??!! =.=llllllllllllllllll

but then, if u send those like :' if you don't send this, your mother/father/family will die'
or those :' send this back to me if i'm your friend'

hello! i wouldn't mind if u curse me, but when u relate this with my family, hehe... don't blame me astaga no heart. But then when i think of it, those person who send it to me also forgivable la. Even me also will send when i receive this kind of msg. It's madness when it relates to my family. Should blame those who so genius create this kind of msg. I think it's mainly from those mobile network provider like digi n celcom. They created it and send to the users so they can earn more money if the users send more msg. OR, just purely some bo liu ppl too bo liu n write those chain msg n send it over, its their interest, so bo liu. =.=

but then, why send those chain msg related to friendship? Do that mean I do not treat you like real friend if i didn't forward the msg back to you? No, right? Will our friendship broke after that? Well, for those who're mature in thinking, might not. But still, it hurts ourselves when those who you think they're real friend, didn't forward back the msg to you. Why do something so stupid to hurt yourself? Plus, is that mean those who forward back the msg to you, treated u like a real friend? Not really, right? Some people forward it back just because they don't want to hurt you. How fake is that, how sick is this society, i had enough.

well, sorry if this post offensed some of you.

speechless

2009-12-05T18:17:00.002+08:00

i have no idea what is the game designers thinking nowadays.

Wedding also can make wars!?

2009-10-27T16:04:00.002+08:00

人生，就是如此。
挣脱过去，然后忘记一切。。。。。？
呵，简直是纸上谈兵
说了一次又一次的再见，
但是，始终难于释怀。
再见，再见，再见。
见什么？！不想再见到了啦！
你又懂什么了？
对，你什么都不懂！
因为我自己都搞不懂！
算了。够了。
害人，害己。
I am dead.

balloon

2009-10-02T22:49:00.000+08:00

Thank you Miss Chew Hui Ting, for erm..."gaping" me a balloon..well i consider that as buying for me =)

KAMZAHAMIDA!!! izit? =.=

birthday wishes

2009-09-30T20:27:00.003+08:00

well...happy belated birthday to

Mr. Christopher Loo

and also

My secretary, Mr Terence Tan

And Happy Birthday to
My best babes, Ms Mjeff!

Good Bye

2009-09-24T21:15:00.001+08:00

Good Bye..so get out of my way! :p

lao mu eh birthday

2009-09-08T16:28:00.003+08:00

Lol, actually i haven finish my last post, last time type till halfway the hotel suddenly dc, i don't know why it will post itself=.=

muahahaha! it's my birthday again!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!! [paiseh, too perasaan=.=]

and also happy birthday to KJS!

I think God also wishing me happy birthday, cuz till yesterday my internet still sot sot de =.= then juz now i try connect, tiam liao \(^.^)/

hmm, wanna thx a few people here..
1. thx for those who woke me up at midnight, I'm actually slept and i forgot to take my pills, how lucky =.=
2. thx for those who wishing me happy birthday in school.
3. thx for those who bought present for me
4. thx for those who wishing me through sms
5. thx for those who wishing me through facebook @.@
6. thx for those who gap to buy a cake for me
7. A super huge thx to popo, huiting, marcella, keele, kuit, terence and ah lai =)
8. hmmm...thx for those who sang bday song for me?
9. and thx for those who didn't sing =.=
10. big thanks to my parents, no them, no me
11. super big thanks to my granparents, no them, no parents, no me
12. thx for those who are wasting time to read this.
13. thx to my 2 beloved daughter to come find me from their class, so far..
14. thx for the bloody sejarah, it's ruin my day.
15. thx my maid for cleaning up my room
16. thx for those who wishing me through their blog
17. thank god, i finally finish this =.=

IM 17 YEARS OLD NOW! OLD LIAO, CAN GO LEARN PUT PUT CAR LIAO!

WAIT FOR ME!!

Happy National Day

2009-08-31T00:05:00.005+08:00

[edited]
Happy National Day!!

Currently at Kudat now. Why? just for fun. My parent's cell group organised a trip to Kudat so i just follow lu... So mati leh....I swear I didn't touch any books during this holiday. You see i still got mood go Kudat relax and online at hotel. I have no idea what am i doing now =.=

So, what i did during this holiday? er..hahaha...play lots of wii with my bloody cousin. but it was kinda fun. I finally manage to finish Super Mario Smash Bros with him ^.^ and then i fall in love with a character in the game

IKE!!

I like to call him 'I-ke' like japanese instead of Ike.
Don't you think he's cool? not only his look, his skill also kinda amazing O.O
but he looks noob in water =.=

aiks, went to power net at cks there for a few times with my cousin during the holidays. And now i finally watched the anime movie which i failed to find since loooong time ago, Full Metal Alchemist: The conqueror of Shamballa'. That cyber is good, got many drama n anime downloaded and now u juz need sit back, relax and watch only, and of cuz u need ur kaching kaching =.=

It's not as good as i expected though, Ed should go back to his world! No more alchemy from him T.T the backgroud music is still good though =D

ok, i think thats for all...bye!

life without internet

2009-08-24T15:50:00.003+08:00

holy tut...
internet down for more than a week...T.T
n now, i walked from my house to cks with my cousin
after about 10-25mins of journey...
came to a cyber, finally can sit back, relax and online \(^.^)/
you might ask, YOU SO WANT MEH?
let me tell you,
IM REALLY DAT WANT la!! =.=

at first we're going to a wifi cafe, but then their wifi seriously got prob...
waste about an hour at there to solve the probs..
but obviously we had failed to solve it=.=
nget sai, made me had a headache til now...
perhaps God really dunwan me to play com, AIKS..

bout the class party, nothing to say la. But i really had fun. thx for those who cheered me =)
once again. PAKISTAN ROCKS!

hopeless

2009-08-12T19:46:00.003+08:00

I feel like I'm dying.

erm. help?

birthday

2009-08-08T16:40:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to Nana-chan

its called 'otanjoubi omedeto' in japanese

pictures

2009-08-02T22:07:00.000+08:00

标准的红绿灯

random pics n kerwo's birthday

2009-07-26T16:37:00.009+08:00

some random things:
1. SAY NO TO NEWSPAPER!! @#$&()*&&^&*^

2.AHH
fell in love with epic musics.
hehe WOOT :p

3.and happy birthday to Rachel Kuo Ke Rwo =D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

4. and then i found some really interesting pictures =X

hahaha, remember the camp? :p

erm, price giving ceremony?

got supporter summore =.=

me and my david boypren xp

O___O
speechless

THIS IS MINE!!

the latest fashion in 2009, hurry, go buy 1!

and finally

Warning: Parental guidance is needed to view the pictures below =X

BUAHAHAHAHAHA

im evil :p

distinction

2009-07-21T18:44:00.002+08:00

I
GOT
DISTINCTION
FOR
MY
BLOODY
FLUTE
EXAM!!!

HOOORAYYYYYY!!!

and happy birthday to SzeMun!!

church's activity

2009-07-18T21:43:00.004+08:00

My church organised a telematch at tanjung aru beach last sunday. It was quite fun but really, the sea water is really awfully dirty. Its full of sea weeds and u cant even walk in the water because its really disgusting =.= I invited popo and ah foo to join us. Actually i got invite many ppl but all busy, haiz.

and here are some pictures of it. LOL

I'm enjoying my 'jaquzzi' and they're throwing sand on me =.=

playing games =.=

speechless =.=

eating at the food court

credits goes to my church's photographer. wahahaha

funny advertisement

2009-07-17T17:28:00.001+08:00

the dress

2009-07-09T19:33:00.003+08:00

hahaha, finally got back my dress. What dress, you ask? Its the dress that i wear for my choir performance during the kkhs concert night. Yeeap, the black one. and yeeeap, I ACTUALLY LOST IT=.= i bet SHE will kill me if SHE know i wear HER dress without HER permission, mao bian :p

At first i was kinda upset, you know la, its her's, not mine=.= I keep imagine how would she kills me if i tell her about it. I even searched it in the dustbin cuz who noes i might have some enemies that i don't know and they threw it away...right. But still i searched nothing but one of my socks, wth...After I saw my sock, i was really really really desperate. I can do nothing but just keep praying. I think Jesus heard my prayers, few days ago ah foo told me that someone might kept the dress bcuz she's like...took everything left in the bilik mesyuarat? And really, she took it and I finally got it back today. she said haima scolded her for the mess in the room so she just took everything =.= sorry dude..and thx foo =)

Just a share and telling you guys don't be so careless like me, dangerous =.=
that's for today, bye!

left 4 dead hakka version

2009-07-05T20:58:00.002+08:00

LMAO!! left 4 dead in my hakka version [kuching's hakka]. Kinda funny hahaha.

for those who don't understand and need translation, i can translate for u if u request =)

flight of bumble bee with double bass

2009-07-01T20:43:00.003+08:00

Just now when chinese orchestra practice, i complained to coach about the tired and sour-ness of my hand because of playing the crazy cello part. Then he told me: this small case la, have you ever see people play flight of bumble bee with cello? So i searched about it on youtube. but instead of playing the song with cello, i found another one, which happens to be more interesting and impressive,

playing flight of bumble bee with double bass

cool huh?

happy birthday to foo

2009-06-30T22:57:00.003+08:00

To ah Fooooooooooooooo(moooooooooooooooo), HAPPY BIRTHDAY YO!!

happy birthday to you,
you born in the farm
you keep screaming moooo moooo
happy birthday to you!

烂gag, 算了吧....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONCE AGAIN!!!

well, its been a while since a do a tag.
Tagged By MeiLing

1.被點到必填，不填代表你不尊重傳給你的人和問卷。
2.請老實的回答每一個問題。
3.不行擅自塗改題目。
4.寫完請點8位朋友，不可不點。
5.點完後請通知那8位小朋友他被點到了。

lazy tag ppl!

。。。。個人題 - 10 題。。。。
01 你叫什么: 蔡慧洁
02 你的綽號：切肉菜
03 你的血型： A
04 你的星座：处女座
05 你是男還是女：女啦!
06 你幾歲：17
07 你住哪裡：亚庇
08 你現在的學校：亚庇中学
09 你有沒有手機：有啦!
10 承上，那是多少：什么鬼!

。。。。朋友題 - 10 題。。。。
11 你最要好的朋友（限１個）： Popo n xian yu
12 你最討厭的人（限１個）： awooooooo

。。。。情題 - 10 題。。。。
21 你有沒有喜歡的人： no for now
23 如果没有，你希望什麼時候有另一半： after i graduate from university
24 到目前為止，你跟多少人告白過： =.=
25 到目前為止，你被多少人告白過： =.=llllllllllllllllll
26 到目前為止，你交過多少個男／女朋友： =.=
27 你現在有另一半嗎: no
28 你最好的同性朋友跟你告白你會怎樣：鬼才要跟你搞lesbian
29 你初戀情人突然跟你告白你會接受嗎：捶他就有
30 你為什麼會喜歡你現在喜歡的人： ang gle te
31 你和另一半牽手過嗎: ahmen
32 你和另一半抱或親過嗎: allah?
33 你跟異性牽手過嗎： nan mo ah leh to fo...
34 是誰，你們什麼關係：tadalalalala biuuuu booommm!!
35 現在有人在追你嗎： ocipala pakistan

。。。。混合題 - 10 題。。。。
36 如果有天，好朋友離你而去，你會怎樣：搞自闭
37 如果有天，好朋友背叛你，你會：搞忧郁
38 如果有天，好朋友對你喜新厭舊了，你會：yim佐亏条耶
39 如果你很受不了你的父母，你會離家出走嗎：no la, i love my parents =D
40 你上課認真嗎：fui常之不认真
41 你功課好不好：fui常之不好
42 你开电腦都在幹麻：玩电脑啦, 你都很好笑一下的
43 你的即时通有多少个同性: 关你事?
44 你的即時通裡有多少個異性：又关你事?

兇手題 - 10 題。。。。
45 傳給你這份問卷的人是誰：MeiLing
46 这個人對你好不好：很好一下的
47 這個人是你的誰：媳妇
48 你有喜歡過這個人嗎：我女儿搞lesbian喜欢她
49 你們認識多久了: 某天某年某日某时某分某秒
50 這個人是怎樣的人：很好玩一下的, 好媳妇, 肯陪婆婆sot
51 這個人正／帥嗎：很可爱一下的
52 這個人跟你有沒有在一起过：本太后不搞lesbian
53 萬一你喜歡這個人，你會怎麼办：下令搞lesbian是合法的

。。。。聯想題 - 10 題。。。。
56 說到正妹你會想到誰：sally
57 說到帥哥你會想到誰：beckham no.7
58 說到憨你會想到誰：瞎眯碗糕?
59 說到痴你會想到誰：我, 白痴
60 說到暗戀你會想到誰：大便兄的亲戚
61 說到出去玩你會想到誰：popo and xian yu
62 說到聰明鬼你會想到誰：电脑狂
63 說到傻子你會想到誰: 我, 傻婆
64 說到笑點低你會想到誰: foo and 诗诗
65 說到愛笑你會想到誰 : LiYing

學校題 - 11 題。。。。
66 你的班導是誰：许定华先生
67 你的座位是第幾排第幾個：左边第一组第二排的中间
68 你最喜歡的老師是誰：算了吧
70 你的英文好嗎：还好啦
71 你的體育好嗎：好, 好个屁
72 你的数学好么：单位数, 很好是?
73 你喜不喜歡你的校長：我选择不回应这一题
74 你的學校好看嗎：很不错一下的
75 你的班級是： 5 bestari..
76 你的班級在幾樓：该死的四楼

tilamme

2009-06-29T23:00:00.004+08:00

TiLamMe stands for

'Ti'ffany(tian fu) "Lam"(Juan Ling) and 'Me', me la =.=

my best buddies that i knew from china.

get it? ;)

Me and Lam =)

i miss her =(

Transformers 2

2009-06-28T19:46:00.002+08:00

watched transformers with my gang just now.

SO NICE MAN!!

I was like, so touched when I 1st saw the car transforms into robot, the animation, THE ANIMATION MAN!!! sobs..It's been about 2 years since i watch it, so huai nian lo!

Then, i had a lot of thoughts during the movie. like...wouldn't it will be great if i can produce an animation like this? gahh, made me want to study animation again. However, i don't think i can do one, except if i work at America, which is impossible =.=

Just now dinner, my dad talked about university AGAIN. But this time, he somehow kinda agree me to study at Japan, WTH=.= but now I don't really feeling like want to study at there anymore. Instead I feel like wanna study animation at US and work at there. SUAN LE BA...stop dreaming chai hui chet, come back, come back!! My dad expect me to study the courses i like, then come back to sabah and work with him. WTH, then what do i study for?! waste money?! OK sorry if you don't understand what am I writing. I felt that my english's standard is getting lower and lower. haiz, it's time to go back IEC tuition my english again...

2009-06-25T21:36:00.006+08:00

SHIT! horoscope personality test. I swear 90% of it is true XS
its not like i want show you what is my personality la, you can ignore it if you want. But damn i never see a result like this before, till i keep wanting to scold tuuuut words =.=

For facebook users, click here to play it if you want.

处女座表面上快乐开朗，其实心里多半比较痛苦。他们似乎可以轻易地忘掉昨夜痛彻心扉的哭声，不知不觉地进入第二天乐得合不拢嘴的状态。处女座的痛苦多来自于家庭的不合和在友情、爱情上的失意。处女座表面上可能会给人小气自私的形象，但实则是不了解他们的人的误识。他们如果显得很小气的话，也许是因为他们的极其慷慨曾招来些对自己的伤害，因此他们在找到一个真正他们认为值得一交的朋友，而那个人也对他无半颗私心前，只能是被自己天生的心软、善良牵制着，畏缩地给予别人帮助，以致于形成小家子的假象。唉~~~~

处女座的友情：，他们渴望精神上的交流、内心世界的彼此了解，他们视友情为达到这一目的的最不可缺少的途径。处女座很少有向亲人吐露心声的机会，因此，朋友在处女座眼中更是显得尤为重要。而交上处女座的人也绝不会吃亏，但处女座的人一生却很难得能遇到知心的朋友，这也就使处女座的人的心事不断的积压下来，久而久之，他们很少向别人透露自己的心事，这种痛苦源于他们需要一个100%的纯洁友情。当处女的朋友又搭上另一个人时，他们只会沉默，用拼命工作之类的事情来麻木自己，掩盖自己的寂寞和失落。庆幸的是处女座是一个非常和平、不记仇的星座，他们不会为此对你进行报复，即使为之，那份量也是微不足道的。因此作为处女的朋友，如果俩人的确是难得知己的话，最好你应该花大部分时和处女座者相处去让他们明白这一点，而不是莫名其妙地甩下他们又搭上另一个人。

处女座的爱情：处女座的爱情多被定义为内向、害羞。而我却不这么认为，他们内心其实很狂热，而且由于他们在为人处事方面的IQ低得要死，甚至完全可以是像《一吻定情》中相原琴子一样的人。由于他们不轻易表露自己的痛苦，整日被张笑脸笼罩这，活泼的形象会浮现于他们爱情世界的表面中。处女座女生并不为一些书上说的很斯文的一个人，他们心血来潮时可以跑到心仪的男生前打招呼、自报家门、要照片。什么马蜂窝她都敢捅，这种我行我素的作风是因为处女座会认为他们本是为寂寞而生，没有人能真正了解他们。自己认为对的事他都可以去做，不屑别人的非言非语，继续表面快乐的生活。而当仰望着朗朗星空时，处女座者却是一个伤感者的角色，他们爱听悲伤的音乐、喜欢广阔的东西，诸如：浩瀚的星空、无垠的沙漠和大海。这时，微微凉风掠过，处女座甚至会觉得这才是人生做到的享受，这时，处女座的人会沉淀白天对爱情的一股傻劲，着实地看清现实的爱情，不免一阵唉声叹气，这时你会惊讶地发现平日蹦跳不停的处女座也有安静、忧郁的一面。在爱情上，处女座的人既有古典保守的一面，也绝对有开放、爽朗的一面，处女座的人大都有很高的文化道德修养，对一些凡尘俗事能够坦然对待，纵然那个最受伤的人是他们自己。处女座的人情绪变化不太稳定，他们善解人意，能够短时间内进入不同的状态，这可能就是人们俗称的神经质吧！不过也正是由于这点，处女座的人往往是作演员的绝好料子，张曼玉,张国荣，就是典型例子。处女座的爱情观也可能会陷入矛盾中。是因为他们豁达的人生观，他们会认为爱情重在曾经拥有，不求一世拥有。甚至可以拥有很高的更换异性的频率，他们会认为人生苦短，应多领略些异性的风情万种，他们很理智，会把爱情作为生活中调剂品，而非全部，让他们过早得迈入结婚礼堂也多是不太可能的。而另一方面正是由于处女座的极其理智，他们怕受到生活中多余的来自爱情的伤害，他们也会有另一种可以成仙的极端的爱情想法：终身不沾上爱情，拥有友情就已足够了。能够反映这两种极端爱情观的例子：当见到一对新人正在举办婚礼时，处女座的想法是：真搞不懂，那些人还那么高兴，难道他们不知道这对新人早晚回分手的吗？还摆宴席，真是不值。处女座的人很现实，他们很少有信爱情这东西能天长地久的，他们视之为肤浅荒唐。处女座的性格很平静，多愁善感，他们身上有很多洁白无暇的优点，如果处女座的人形成一个社会的话，那将是名副其实的乌托邦。但可悲的是他们的这些优点似乎很不合现在这个社会的潮流，他们被称为不懂人情世故，也正是如此，处女座的人的优点只能是被这个污浊的社会给淹没了。处女座的人外貌上看去清爽，他们的眼睛大都不是很大，但很有神，嘴也不大，但很精致，笑起来时，哈哈哈，他们的嘴可就不小啦--！哈哈哈…

处女座的时间观念是：来得早不如来得巧，他们认为来得早时剩下的时间完全是没必要的浪费！处女座的人多半很幽默，而且非常谦虚，不爱到处张扬，除非心血来潮时。处女座的人一生大都较坎坷和不顺心，他们生活的条件和机遇总不是和他们浓烈的人格魅力成正比。他们很不自信，再加上他们淡然处之的作风使自己在一人走路时显得忧心忡忡，很冷静的样子，不过可恶的是，不了解他们的人说那是耍酷(=.=).处女座宝贝有很高的艺术欣赏水平，他们非常具有审美观，所以对一些事往往要求也很高，但表面漂亮的异性也是可以吸引处女座的！处女座多半对钱较重视，这个很怪，而往往很少得到钱的也是他们。处女宝贝们在某些方面很聪明，他们对365行都有天赋，只要一入门都能熟练掌握，这可能都归功于他们很高的悟性吧！不过如此全能的人，在择业问题上还是个不小的困难呢！处女宝贝们不太重视衣着外表，他们很实际，认为我有内在还怕什么外表差，不到衣服破得实在是不能穿时，他们是很少去购衣的。处女座的人身体不太好，尤其是肠胃，便秘，消化不良是常见的事，他们的脂肪多积于下半身！好可怜! 我们的宝贝很善讲理论，但在付诸行动上常常很欠缺，在这方面他们似乎很没原则，总是游戏时间，不到千钧一发时，他们很难从懒惰里解脱出来，除非心血来潮时.

random

2009-06-20T23:06:00.002+08:00

you miss the old days, you said.
so do i.
but...just let it be.
I'm tired to get through all this thing now.

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let me tell you
don't try to pull me to the darkness again
I will not give up,
I will not cry,
until the day i can face the world
with the smile from the bottom of my heart.
because..
我们只活一辈子,
与其悲伤度过,
为何不开心面对呢?
我们悲伤,
又是为啥呼?

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quote of the day:
一个人难过的时候, 心情是非笔墨能形容的.

ABRSM flute exam

2009-06-19T21:11:00.003+08:00

clothes that i wear to my exam..too formal liao =.=

soleh boss, model-ing boss, go wash ur eyes boss hahaha

Ok first time i take picture like this, with those clothes summore. Looks funny lol....

and yes, i just took my ABRSM flute exam on last Monday. And holy cow I was late because my daddy was busy with his work and forgot to fetch me =.=lllll
TEEET..NG part 1

then, finally its my turn. Damn they shouldn't choose hotel as the exam hall because its damn cold inside. The point is, I cant warm up my flute!! (p/s: flute sounds horrible when it is cold) what the hell, it's not fair for wood wind players like me =.= Then, as i thought, i cant blow out the notes properly T.T my first piece the examiner said he enjoyed it, 2nd he said not bad, third he just said thank you. HOLY, damn hurt -____-
TEEET...NG part 2

Then, the sight reading part. damn i really spoiled it because i played it too fast n out of tempo. then after i play for a while, the examiner said, ok, start over. At 1st i was like O.Owhat? and i thought i did something wrong =.= then only i know they'll give you about 30seconds to practice the short piece for a while =.=lllll NO BODY TELL ME ABOUT THAT BEFORE LO =.=At the end the examiner said: you played it quite fast don't you? *wth, cry in my heart T.T
TEEET...NG part 3

Then, the scale and chromative scale. My teacher told me the examiner will just give 1 minor scale, 1 major scale, and 1 chromative scale only. But at the end, the examiner gave me so much scales!! Fmajor, Bbmajor, Gmajor, A minor harmonic, Gm appegious, and i forgot, another 3 or 4 more i think =.= GOD, I WILL HATE SCALES FOREVER!! din do any big mistakes, so i think it was ok, but i still played it with a horrible sound =.=
TEEET...NG part 4

Then, the aural test. The taping was ok, i already heard the piece when I'm in waiting room, he played it quite loud =.= then singing...was so differently from what i learn from my aural teacher, the note change till u also mcc =.= then the others are ok...
TEEET...NG part 5

wuwuwu...i think i just can manage to get a pass with this condition. curse hotel, curse hotel!!!
so, that's my experience for taking flute exam. I don't think I'll do it again. Cuz it's seriously wasting time. Since last year's august i already start to practice my pieces, everytime go lessons also play that 3 pieces only also, and now i ended up like this. haiz, wasted my money and qing chun =.=

quote of the day:
一寸光阴一寸金, 寸金难买寸光阴.

stupid cousin

2009-06-11T18:44:00.003+08:00

WARNING: This is a fui choi post, just to let me express out my mad feelings, UHH. ignore it if u want.

shiat. i really hope to get rid of my that tuuuuuuuut cousin. HE THOUGHT I'M DUMB HUH?!

Since form one, (or before that), my "lovely" cousin will come to my house to play every holidays as he's the only child in his family and his parent have to go to work. Every time he come, sure went upstairs and say "hello!!!!" to my computer. Its ok that he use the computer, but I hate him using it for all day long, without rest!![7.30am-6pm] I had totally no chance to use it. Now what? He thought my house is free cybercafe izit?! OK FINE! wo ren... Then at night, when i want to play, my parents scold me! what the FUCK!! I'm really mad u know, mad like mad cowSS. OK, FINE! wo ren...then i forgot who, got someone taught me to lock the account. I learned it, and I'm kind enough to keep the guest account on, so he can play but not download SBLU games in my computer, hope that he can obey my wishes. UNFORTUNATELY, got one day i rush on my budget estimate report for choir, and i forogt to log off my account and i went to school. And GOD DAMNIT he terus downloaded 2 SBLU games!! that's not the point sommore, HE CREATED AN ACCOUNT FOR HIMSELF!! WHAT THE FUCKKKKK!!!!!! And also, he updated my msn messenger version, to that which many of my friends complain that it is not good as the version im actually using. AND NOW, I CAN'T CHANGE IT BACK!! SHITTTT!! OK FINE, WO REN!!! then i deleted his god damnit account, and I'm really KIND enough to turn on the guest account again. Then today, as i got no activity like usual so i stayed at home. Seeing him playing my computer, I really got mad but i just keep quiet and i went inside my parent's room to watch tv. Then suddenly he came in, he said only my account can play certain games and he wants to play it, so he asked me to log on my account. OK, FINE!! Im really really really really kind enough to go outside, type my password, log on my account, let him play it. And i told him not to download anything he want. He said ok. Then i went to my flute class. Around 6pm, I came back, and i went upstairs going to my room. And god damnit I saw slamdunk as my wallpaper! Then he saw me, he quickly log off his "Guest accout". I ask him what is that, he say :no ar, just change ur guest account's wallpaper. The weird thing is, the guest account's name suppose to be "Guest", but it happens to added a dot to it, become "Guest.". My sixth sense told me something goes wrong, i quickly log in my account, check my users account, and SHIAT HE CREATED AN ACCOUNT NAMED "GUEST."!!!!!!!!!!! HE WANT TO FOOL ME HUH?????!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOW I TELL YOU, IM NOT AS DUMB AS U SEE OK DUDE???!! ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!

and now, i deleted his so called guest account, and im really really really x100000 kind enough to turn on the guest account again. If he did anything that fool me again, REALLY NO MERCY I TELL YOU NELSON CHAI!!! I WONT TURN ON THE GUEST ACCOUNT ANYMORE I TELL U!! LAO MU BU HAO RE!! if you're not my cousin, i sure scold u till cry and go find ur mummy sai nai liao!!

but still, there're good thing happens. I told my parents about it, in a very angry way. My dad say that he'll buy a laptop for me hahaha :p But dunno whether he took that as real or he's just joking =.=

p/s: SBLU stands for Stupid Bo Liao Useless

KKBOX

2009-06-07T20:28:00.009+08:00

WAHAHAHA!!
Guess wat, yesterday i said i wanna shout right, then today my church's fren brought me to kkbox. My very first time going KKBox and DAMN I HAD A LOT OF FUN MAN! we shout, we jump on the sofa, we had buffet as lunch, we sang 3 hours, we ss, all just cost RM17.25 each person! and cost ur energy also =.= but really, instead of giving mic to others (like what happened on melia's birthday), we 4 so po kinda keep rebut the mic to sing, LOL! no tolarance ar..

young rachel, old rachel, sally

old rachel, sally, young rachel, me

me, KeRwo, ZiRou, Sally

KeRwo, ZiRou, Sally, me

paiseh, we're singing 'tuo diao', she really wan tuo already =.=

me n pals jumping on the sofa :p

Rach n Sally

Rachel

Sally

Me n KeRwo high singing again =.=

=.= really high ar...

she propose to me? O.o

NG part =.=

HuiChet's concert =.= btw i did not choose that song=.=

2 rachel gao lesbian!!!

AHHHH!!!

qiang jian!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kena force to take this pic 1 T.T

too comfortable liao =p

miserable, all gao lesbian =.=

again...T.T

Rachel's concert

rachel n sally

NG part

KeRwo and me

Sally singing, Old Rachel pick song

Wide screen!! KeRwo's favourite singer XD

Me SS-ing

KeRwo singing

and yes, i had my haircut, damn ugly man, my church's friend say that i look like egypt's Fa Lao Wang T.T

BTW, old Rachel is Zirou, young Rachel is KeRwo, Their full name is Rachel Kou Zi Rou and Rachel Kuo Ke Rwo, very similiar right? sometime i will call them lao rou and nian qing rou, swt =___=lll

damn, we sing really loud lo, even i go outside take food also can hear the voices in our room =.= when the workers come in to serve us, they also laugh because we luan luan sing n out of pitch n tempo 1. LOL!!! the funiest and highest song we sang is Pleas Don't Stop The Music by Rihanna if not wrong, SYOK LO!! got chance must go sing again XD RECOMMENDED!! although thier foods are kinda sucks =.=

church's camp

2009-06-06T22:30:00.005+08:00

WooHoooo! Just came back from my church's camp. \(^.^)/
the camp was ok, kinda weird because where got camp just 2day 1 night?! This time, our camp's topic is 如果.爱. Lame topic but suit for teenagers like us. We had 4 session of talking and all is about love, love, love and love.

form for the camp

Me and my church's friend, talked and discussed lots of our love problem in the midnight. why midnight? cuz that's the only time we're free la! Honestly, this is my first time that really talk about my love life with others. My church's friend are kinda shocked too because they say I'm 'cool cool style' and don't really talk much about myself . However, i didn't really felt better, so there's no point for me to express my feelings =.= that's why i rarely talk about it...so friends, if i tell you about this sorts of things, I really trust in u de o...

me, rachel, sally, ss-ing =.=

We had a competition of acting, in groups. I joined 2 groups as another group don't have enough members to act with. Plus the one who asked me to join their group is my master XS [angel and master game, a very common game that many church's camp also will play it] and guess wat, 2 of my group also won prices! [my group goes first and my master's group goes second] So happy wahahahahaha!

haiz, finally finished the choir n church's camp, next week will be CO's camp. NOOOOOO!! give me some time to sleep la, everyday also sleep late late wake up early early, my working amount also more than usual school days, WHY MY HOLIDAYS ALWAYS GOT SPOILED UP LIKE THIS?! even if i got time stay at home, i still don't really have time to enjoy myself cuz my dat tuuuuutttttttt cousin!! IIIIIIISSSSSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! someone, pls bring me go somewhere to shout eh, kbox also can, i cannot tahan liao T.T

dats it for this post, thx for reading.

quote of the day
祷告有如一张纸,烦恼有如一块铁块, 所以我们必须不停地祷告, 来平衡烦恼的重量.

Mr ooi teach physic

2009-06-02T22:07:00.003+08:00

LOL!!

Just now i went to my physics tuition, and Mr Ooi is teaching as Mrs Ooi went to a camp at Kian Kok. He told us many cold jokes and many funny things happens that really make us went LOL.

1st situation.
Me: teacher, what is miliammeter?? [i pronounced it as miliam meter =.=]
teacher: what?
me: miliammeter [miliam meter again =.=]
teacher: mili ammeter izit?
me: =.=llllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll ok ok ok i get it!!!!
[tuition mates laughing]
teacher: i wonder ar, mili means very small right??
us: aha
teacher: and mega means very big right??
us: er yea....[wonder what he will say again =.=]
teacher: can you imagine how 'mili'mewah have 'mega' sales ar??
[and we laugh till bao du =.=]

2nd situation.
[teacher is teaching a form4 student about momentum]
teacher: as if there is a road in this pattern ar [curve], n there is a car drive across this road ar, the car wont really follow this road n fly outside the road de worh, then car accident happen lo, you noe why ar?
studentA: dont know...y?
teacher: because the driver is overweight la! his mass too big make big inertia also, hard to stop him ma, so thats why we have to stay at standard weight!
us:.................................................=.=lllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll

i think there're others but i don't really remember. Had lots of fun tonight, hehehe=)

quote of the day:
一既是全, 全既是一

name

2009-05-27T20:49:00.004+08:00

The holy name for my holy sickness is called:

Acute Pharyngitis Follicular Tonsillitis

cool, cool name.

my sick diary

2009-05-23T17:54:00.006+08:00

sorry for the late update. Actually wanna post about it yesterday night, but my parents banned me from playing com n keep asking me go to rest. BOT MOI LO!!! not only com, they also banned me from playing flute, they say got many bacteria. WTH?!

ok, the answer is....

TAA DAAAA!!!

It actually connected to a needle, which already stuck inside my hand. If u press, u can actually feel the present of the needle inside my hand. EW.

today my title will be:
'Sick Isn't Fun, Nor Syok At All!!'

diu, ever receive those 'syok la, no need go to school' messages before?

Let me tell u,
I RECEIVED TONS OF IT!!
and
SICK ISN'T SYOK AT ALL!!!!

what actually had happen to me? To be honest i don't really know until yesterday. I met tons of doctors, ate tons of medicine, n spent tons of money just to treat my sickness!!

ok not really, but the money thingy is a fact.

my sick diary.
It all started on last last Saturday.

9 May 2009
I felt kinda dizzy after taking my breakfast, but don't keep a damn to it, because i always had this sorts of problem. Then afternoon, fever attack!! i quickly cover myself in the blanket n sweats a lot. Then i recovered. Then night, fever attack again!! =.= then i told my mom about it, she took care of me for almost whole night.

10 May 2009
Morning, woke up. Mom thought i recovered from the fever and asked me go to church. I went, and here's the fever comes again. After church, mom took me to a doctor near CKS there. The doctor said that i got infection on the throat, so gave me antibiotic for a few days.

13 May 2009
After school, i asked mom to fetch me cuz i missed lucky's car. And when i get in the car, mom is shocked when see my face pale in colour. Then she brought me back to the doctor again. N u noe what the doctor said?!

医生: 你家里有没有人患有贫血症?
妈: 他爸爸和姐姐有带菌的贫血症.
医生:我觉得她也有哦, 你看 (grab my hands n press here press there)她的血每次都回到很慢哦.
妈: 她又有讲昨天晚上她胃痛喔.
医生:可能我开的antibiotic太强哦,加上她血又很像不够, 可能胃受到刺激啦.
妈: 酱她还要吃那个药吗?
医生: 可能不可以哦,再吃下去我怕她会胃出血.

The doctor said till like i got any 绝症 dat, his emotion ar, tsk tsk. Then me n my mom was like WTH?! and the doctor dun dare to give any treatment on me cuz he's still a newbie. SWEATS.

Then night, mom brought me to many clinics to see doctor but most of the doctors were absent, at the end, we go find Dr.Tan (not u terence tan) then he gave me an injection. On butt, yes, Tan ming xuan n lao hao sean claimed that im molessed after i told them T.T

then, I had another 2 injection on the following days.
and, i had antibiotics for 9 bloody days.

22 May 2009
Im actually recovered from the infection, but then the infection reappear n became worse. This time, im really suffer from sore throat. Menelan saliva also hurt till my ear also feels the pain. Then i went to c dat Doctor Tan again. This time, he also said that i got problems with my blood!!! He even said that i might have bone narrow failure!! He asked me to take a blood test on yesterday, and that's the main reason why i didn't go to school.

23 May 2009
after that doctor tan sucks my blood out, the doc say need wait till next wednesday baru can know the result. mom still worry and cant wait for that long, so she brought me to a ear nose throat specialist at damai specialist center.
This time, this doctor, use something like this

n shoved it into my nose(i know, EW!!) to c what happen inside. If u ask what is that, it's a nose camera [Click here to know more about it.] Finally, the main reason that i will sick till like this is because i got infection inside my nose! then the nose infect my throat. As the previous doctor all just threat my throat, so the infection came back after i recover. WTH. SO IT'S NOTHING RELATED WITH MY BLOODY BLOOD!! waste rm100+ on the blood test T.T n my precious blood T.T dunno how many ml kena suck out liao T.T

then, the doctor suggest me to take injection again. This time, 6 injection! and u know what, each injection cost bloody RM97!! And i paid bloody RM758.90 for this bloody treatment!!
BLOODY!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

and, i got dat needle on my hand because the nurse said that it will make the following injection job become more easier, no need owez find vein. SWEATS again but the nurse is a very kind person =)

so, overall i got

9 injections @.@

undefined numbers of medicines

n a almost RM1000 treatment bill.

BLOOOODYYYYY!!!!!!

now, i already took 4 injections. But my sickness wasn't really recovering. haiz.
n i can't really talk properly, my account tuition mates claimed that I'm like cry talking. SWEATS.
n, i'll get my 5th injection on tomorrow, 6am!! WTH?!!! really no mercy, the doc don't even bother to give me to rest a day. HAIZZZZZZ.............
thx to that needle, i'm now as useless as an OKU =.= 残废, 残废啊....

but, there's a lot of people gave me mental support out there la, my church mates even sms to each other ask them help me pray. Really really really have to thanks those who cared for me, especially my mom. LOVE YOU ALL!! sobs sobs
and really sorry for making those who worried for me. GUILTY-NESS T.T

skipped school

2009-05-23T17:36:00.003+08:00

ohohoho...skipped school today =) no, i skipped bio's exam. that's the point... =|

Guess what had happen to my poor left hand.
glad that it is left =.=

brain problems

2009-05-20T16:15:00.002+08:00

yooohooo ohohohoho

ok, I'm facing some certain little problem with my brain. That is, I'll get high even nothing had happen. Yes, I'm typing now and I'm bloody high. u know why?? I DON'T KNOW!! AHAHAHAHA!!

oh no, this is bad.

In fact, really bad.

Even i knew that I'm totally not ok, but I will smile like a sohai. Am i laughing at myself? well, maybe. Perhaps the fever burnt my brain down, perhaps I'm overstressed, perhaps I'm too desperate to be sad again, perhaps my hormones had lost control, perhaps... OHH THERE'S TOO MUCH PERHAPS!! to be honest i still don't know how to use the word perhaps. ohohohoho.

Thanks for wasting your precious time to visit and read my fui choi blog.

i decided to add a 'quote of the day' section to my post.

quote of the day:
I know everything will be fine, just i don't know when.

thx Ariele n Ellen

2009-05-17T17:18:00.003+08:00

my blog macam mau revive liao hahahaha.

thx for my lovely daughters Areiele n Ellen for the rose!
i..snift..am really...snift...touching...snift...u noe!! 1st time in my life i receive flower ohohoho.
n its was kinda funny too.

A=ariele, E=ellen, M=me

they both put their hands at the back.
A: yo mama, guess wat we want to give u?
seriously, i have no idea but suddenly i thought of nana's roses.
M: rose??
then both of them showed tulan face, at 1st i thought it means 'wth r u thinking?!' but then i was wrong.
M: come la, show me show me.
A n E: Na (show me the rose)
n i was like half screaming
M: WHAT? really woh?? u really wan give this to me????

or something like that.

really really thx o =) <3<3

something i thought of in my mind when im free:

1. We have only 2 option. Either we tear memories into pieces, or memories tear us into pieces.

2. Even charming people will have thier own darkness that nobody can see or realize.

3. I was told to love others like loving myself. But the fact is i don't even love myself?

3. hate, hate, hate....is that what you're thinking?

yaaaa. emo but i'm fine ;)

music exam

2009-05-15T21:14:00.002+08:00

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

just now my music school's teacher sent me a sms, told me my flute exam is going to be held on 15th June!!! only a month left, I still haven't prepare a lot of thing lo!! my scales, my pieces, my oral exam.........*faint..

i still remember what my teacher told me last time

'i expect u to get a distinction de ah'

FAINT!!

may god bless me ='|

where is my path? which is my path?
I saw many of them, don't know which to choose.
some had footsteps on it, some hadn't.
Is that mean its a better path, because there are others been through these path before?
or not.
Who knows, I can get a better experience by going other path.
or not.
I'm odd sometimes, I want to choose what peoples don't choose usually.
but i have not enough bravery nor qualifications to choose what i want.
following the footsteps of others is so not my style.
but what can i do?
let the God decides?
I guess he also mou ngan tai =.=

haiz......

sick

2009-05-12T14:16:00.002+08:00

Thx for those who cared for me =)

ok, the reason i didn't go to school for these 2 days is because...

I'M SICK!!!!!!!!!!
SICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SICCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!
AND I'M SICK OF THIS MOTHER HOLY COW TUT SAKAI PAKISTAN FRIED SALMON SICK!!!!!!!!!

ehem, sorry.

ok, the thing is, I'm having fever since Sat afternoon. Til now, about 4 days edy.

sigh.

Q&A parts.
1. din c doctor meh?
- YES I DID.

2. din eat medicine?
-YES I DID

3. then why still sick?
-HOW WILL I KNOW?!
well, perhaps i got that wat h1N1 thingy, wahahahha.

I must be cursed.

Yuki Kajiura live

2009-05-08T22:46:00.004+08:00

Warning:
This post is dedicated to Yuki Kajiura's fans, which consist of many vocal singing, classical music or what so ever u called it. =.=

I warned you!

CHEWWW xp
Yuki Kajiura's Live concert lo! I wish i could attend T.T
I WANT GO I WANT GO I WANT GO!!!
even if one day they held it at 1B, i walk also attend for sure!!

ok, mayb not, x hours of journey u walk youself la =.=

Vanity

enter the scenery of love
lovers are in pain
they blame and pick on each other
you play melodies of love
forgotten phrases
tender and sweet

come a little bit closer
don't stay in the shadows my boy
(la la la la la la la)
the melody's fading.....
now or never, love will go

I'll be there by your side
share your fears in the silent redemption
touch my lips, hold me tight
live in vanity for a while

as winter melts in the sun
boys will be out running and reaching for the light
oh mother please find me in that place
before the memories tear us into pieces

clinging to affection, we somehow do learn to live
(la la la la la la la)
in endless motion
never coming back, love will go

you'll be there by my side
you may never know my devotion
feel my breath in the quiet night
live in vanity for ever

won't you feel my gentle emotion
let us live in peace with conviction
if you're here please hold me.....

Himeboshi and Mezame

A Song of Storm and Fire

Liminality

Fake Wings

Everlasting Song

well, i only posted some of it, go youtube search if u wan for more...

weird ss post

2009-04-23T22:59:00.002+08:00

Blind and Deaf,
I'm once afraid of being like that.
But now, I hope I own all of those syndrome,
as long as it can keep me far away from this world.

I hope i am blind,
so that I would'nt see the things that I don't wanna see.
I hope i am deaf,
so that i would'nt listen the things that I don't wanna listen.
and NO, I'm not begging for your kindness.
just let me imagine my own sky, my own fantasy,
and that's more than enough.

I'm like a greedy bird,
that still want more after owning its freedom.
Fly, fly, up to the sky,
I saw the sky, without any idea how high it is.
Looking downwards, I saw the sorry land,
The wounds inside me react, made me run away for it.

Exhausted, finally.
But the sky will never prepare a place for you to rest.
Its time to make a decision,
but the option made me very very desperate.
looking backwards, i see nightmares
looking forwards, i see nothing but storms.
cage and roasted bird, which will you choose?

ha, wanna eat roasted bird anyone?

ok, the weirdest post i ever wrote =.= Don't take what i wrote seriously, and also, don't ask me what happened!!

random

2009-03-25T21:22:00.001+08:00

another day, another night
nothing seems to be right.

instead of feeling great, i felt suffer.
thinking why would i doing this at the first place.

i wanna hide, hide myself to a fantasy
that no one can find my true self

i wanna hide, hide all my bad feelings
so others can see a good me, not an emo me.

worry, worries, worried.
why would god create this feeling.

i am so not me. Im doing what others want me to be.
i lost myself, where is me?

kkhs performs at pesta angpau

2009-01-29T21:40:00.003+08:00

the sound of music, sob sobs T.T
time passed, and the holidays are coming into an end. you noe wat, i felt even more tired than schooling days! perhaps i out to much, i keep wanting to sleep even though i slept 10 hours last night zzzz

happy chinese new year

2009-01-26T00:15:00.001+08:00

HAPPIEEEE CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

oh gosh, the fireworks are everywhere. off to go to watch them! bye!

busy

2009-01-22T15:25:00.011+08:00

Right, update, update...so here's the update.

I've been very busy lately:

-morning i have classes,
-afternoon got chinese orchestra practice(glad that its finally over T.T)
-while night =______=
---i only left with 2 option
-----1) BLOODY tuition!!!
-----2) stuck inside the room, and mom will check you for times to c wheter u're
-------i)sleeping ii)doing homework iii)day dreaming iv)studying v)play musical instrument
--------well for sure, only the second & forth option is allowed =.=

looks sienz here but indeed im kinda busy.

what a miserable life, the 1st time im hell busy like this. I don't even sure if i sleep well or eat well. (well i actually did=p) once there's about a week, i din even touch my computer, nor watch tv, nor play my wii. I'm out of the techno life! OMG!! but gladly i still got my phone, and ipod<3

and yes, i just bought an ipod.

mine was in blue colour. I wanted to buy an orange 1 but dun have stock =(

ok finish showing off.
I wonder have you ever share the happiness with your friend when you bought a new stuff?
if yes, and i wonder did you get the comments like below

a) show off! psssttt
b) vui shui liao la!
c) posly rich
d) wah so nice! [then say u show off at the back]

and yes, i get some of those when i tell some of my friends that i actually bought an ipod.
and it made me sad.

sigh.

ok, lets go on.

the photos of the pesta angpau held in UMS!

lao hao sean!
my breakfast

the members' leg

candid

in bus

the crowd

me n kjs

me n ariele

me n nana

kuit n me in killing emotion

me, ariele and coach

me n nian chi

me n Johan

Ariele and coach

me n coach

Kuit n coach

me n doraemon

Charlotte, me, doraemon

hear no evil, speak no evil, see no evil =p

smexy pose

me n cool cool keay

me n xin tze

ok i thinks dats it, c ya!

new blog skin

2008-12-23T23:49:00.010+08:00

TA DAAAA!!

Changed my blog's skin! hope u like it!

YO DUDES AND BABES!! long time no c, hahahaha...
and sorry for the dust here, will update as soon as i get anything interesting that can post in here =.= actually there're things that can let me post, but uh... im too lazy to do that =p

dramatic kid

2008-12-01T18:20:00.004+08:00

dramatic kid.

skydiving

2008-11-26T19:54:00.003+08:00

i just knew my sis went to skydiving through facebook's photos =.=

OMFG this is too high........................................................
did i ever mention that i dun actually like high places? yes, i got a lil phobia on it, when i stand near the window like 10th floor or something, i'll think that i will fall down from the building or the building will corrupts or something. stupid enough but what to do, this is human's natural behaviours =.=

but i have to admit that looks syok betul hahaha.

yamoni

2008-11-21T15:42:00.003+08:00

this is the video that i said wanna post looooong time ago.

introduce you my so called brother and son which is a.k.a Broson Wong

yamoniii~

hahhahaha

aussies fact

2008-11-15T18:21:00.002+08:00

to someone: you're really nya ma nga len

i found out some facts about aussies.

1. aussie love sudoku and word puzzle.
In both flight from KK to KL and KL to AUS, I saw most of the ang mo grabbing pen and do their sudoku and word puzzle from newspaper and magazine.

2. aussies are bloody tall.
a normal aussie is already 2 head taller from me @.@

3.aussies are really polite.
Everytime you purchase their thing, they will first ask you 'Hi how ya doin?' and i really don't know should i respond to them or not =.=
Besides, their pronunciation are kinda funny as well. the word 'ya' is pronounced as 'yay'. Sometime when they repeat it many time, really will makes me laugh hahahah.

4. But aussies are rude in driving.
citizen in melbourne are counted as the most rude drivers in australia. If you do something wrong, middle finger is something can't avoid from, even girls. hahaha

5. Aussies care very much for the environment.
dui, there's even a law that you can't wash your car for the shake of saving water. What if you want to wash your car? go to the car wash shop and spend damn bloody $80 [its $80, havent convert it to Rm] for cleaning your babe, including other services of course =p

just a short post, will update this later.

aus trip..

2008-11-12T16:29:00.003+08:00

sorry my friends, please don't put too much expectation on the souvenir..things here are really bloody expensive until 4 person ate some dim sum also cost around rm300+ liao hahahaha....i might just buy it for ah-b family only.

bazooka

2008-10-31T15:36:00.002+08:00

recently there's a person really get on my nerves. i just wanted to do this.

i noticed my recent post are kinda down n evil, i apologize.

failure people

2008-10-27T11:40:00.007+08:00

what happen to the society? click to enlarge the image to c what i mean.

after spiderman, and here comes another fui choi fake people's id to write messages in my cbox.

all i can say is

GET LOST, you're such a failure!

dota

2008-10-25T23:49:00.003+08:00

haha, i know its weird but i tried to play dota juz now. Somehow i cannot go into the LAN n a pop-up box writing !could not connect to the network will appear n i really don't know wat to do.

at 1st i thought my couzin caused this problem because recently he installed many fui choi game n i can play britney spears n naruto game in dota. =.=

but then i think i was wrong. After i researched about it, i found out many people had encountered in this kind of problem, so just let the ad find solution wahahaha

angry

2008-10-20T14:52:00.002+08:00

sakai...my couzin started his holiday already

dats mean i'll b seeing him everyday, playing my wii n computer

YAY not, cb hamka grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

2008-10-18T19:45:00.008+08:00

Happy birthday to NG popo!!
go get a driving license eehhhhhh

etooo, today was kinda busy but not so busy. =.=

lets see...

2 hours of tuition

1 hour practice and 1 hour lesson for flute

1 and a half hour for drum

not much, but damn, these few thing already make me stress and exhausted.

and the best way to release my stress is....

play WII!

dun play play..popo pro gamer tu...

really, everytime i felt like punching people, wii helped me alot =D

and have you ever played round shape poker card o.O

hard to hold, hard to see =.=llllllll

thats it, just a short update

2008-10-11T15:03:00.004+08:00

i must be sienz enough to do this....

mine[1.32pm]

keele's [1.34pm]

terence's [1.39pm]

joyce's [1.41pm]

melia's [1.41pm]

keay's [1.51pm]

if arrange those messages according to time, a disgusting name called CATTIE will appear and

WHO THE *UCK IS THIS CATTIE!?

plus, you can call yourself 'ME' instead of 'KEELE CHIN'

'我一直都不相信你是凶手, 但是事情实在有太多巧合'
quote from metal hand hahaha

more proves at http://www.twhao-thepianist.blogspot.com/

P/S: im just suspecting

birthday wishes

2008-10-09T16:48:00.003+08:00

im not that rich n my flute is the cheapest among yamaha.

anyways, happy birthday to

my papa Keele Chin Ken Chung,

&

Khung Ting Yung

and happy belated birthday to

Charlotte, Keay, Melia, Ms Chew n Queenie

will upload the photos n video once i got the chance to touch my computer in my home T.T [mom being so strict lately]

Jigoku Shoujo

2008-10-01T00:08:00.009+08:00

today im going to talk about

that's right, jigoku shoujo [translated as Girl From Hell]

honestly, i don't really like this anime cause yea, its just keep repeating the same thing...hate, revenge, hate, revenge and hate, revenge. but untill the part it talks about ema ai's story, ui nah..punya touching...

this video talks about how an innocent girl can become such a cruel hell girl just in a night. the video might get u blur so im going to explain it here. but better dun read it, cuase i also dunno wat am i writing =.=

Ema Ai has a strange power since she was young. In the villagers' eyes, they treat her as a monster, except for Sentaro. And in the village, they got superstitious that they need to offer a 7 years old child every seven years[or every years i don't remember] to some kind of god [tree god? hill god??]. UI? kebetulan that year Ema is 7 years old. Because of the villagers hate her, so they choosed her. As her childhood friend, Sentaro cant leaves her die like that, plus Ema's parents beg him to protect her, so he takes her ran away from the village. After that, the village's harvest turned to be really bad, anything wouldn't grow. and punya bodoh, he din take her too far away from the village, and finally get caught by the sibeh angry villagers. they digged a hole, and wanted to burried Ema Ai and her family to get the frogiveness from the God. and they want Sentaro to do it first as thay said he caused all this troubles. and he did it. then its Ema Ai's turn to be sibeh angry as she expect Sentaro will protect her. At the midnight, she came up form the ground and burns the village [she did that with her strange powers] , and at the same time, Sentaro was leaving the village and saw everthing. he then ki xiao and Ema Ai became hell girl..

damn i hate superstitious!

p/s: the contain that i wrote might got some mistake cuz i watch it since last year and i don't remember it well.

if you read it and u dont like what i wrote, u took for it! hahahahaha...

birthday wishes

2008-09-30T18:22:00.002+08:00

err..

happy belated birthday to terence@ham dan [i bet cht will leh kong when she noe u post her sms on internet]

and happy birthday to Marcella Lim

cp trip

2008-09-28T20:42:00.002+08:00

happy birthday to Christopher!

nothing much happened today. Actually im going cp with Ms Chew and ah kuit this afternoon, but then got some problem and i ended up going with nana and her sis.
It was quite fun hanging out with them cause the situation something like this wont happen.

A: [keep looking at a shop as she/he want to go in see see.]
B: what's wrong? you want go to that shop? [with a HUH u wan go to that freaking shop??]
A: [very paiseh] err........no need lar..............

One word, akward i mean. even if that happen it will end up like this

A: [keep looking at a shop as she/he want to go in see see.]
B: what's wrong? you want go to that shop? [with a HUH u wan go to that freaking shop??]
A: YES [go straight without seeing your respond]

i don't like akward, as i mean you have to squish ur brain to think what should you talk or what respond should you give. but as we got almost alike art senses, we're quite getting along when buy things.

and wow, yong shu lan's son sing on stage today due to my church had organized a singing contest. DAMN CUTE!!

apology

2008-09-28T00:29:00.002+08:00

at here, i sincerely apologize to my papa Keele Chin Ken Chung for misunderstood him, and did something that makes myself also went 'Unbelievable!' GOMENASAI!

my celebirity looks

2008-09-24T18:52:00.002+08:00

MyHeritage: Celebrity Collage - Lost relatives - Old photographs

wat the..i don't know anyone of them..

AUS MILO

2008-09-18T19:42:00.004+08:00

well, my grandma just came back from kuching few days ago. And i actually didn't realize she brought back a tin of Milo which my granduncle bought it for her when he had a trip at Australia.

the milo from australia

n now my question is, ...............WHY MILO?! there are so many delicious food or junkies at Australia such as the super very delicious nougat but instead u bought something that can buy at Malaysia as well.

no no no, this the the reason why i'm fat.

fine, better than nothing. somehow the way Australians drink Milo got a lil bit different with us. they directly use warm or cold milk mix with milo instead of wat kao kao like us.

ok, very special, so i decided to try it and i did. while the result?

at first it look like this. n i was like wat the hell it won't dissolve? so i took a poon and stired it.

n hahaha. it turn like this. my bad. i forgot powder cannot dissolve in cold water.

so what to to? i have no other choice but finish it off.

how was it taste? it was ok actually, just like ur drinking milk while eating milo powder. but somehow the feeling...it was like you're drinking brown diarrhoea with milk. One word, DISGUSTING!!! i wonder why australian can drink something like this. i bet when they try our version's milo, they'll cry like hell.

i'm eating shit for these years...

dats all for today

Happy Mid Autumn Festival!!

2008-09-13T23:33:00.001+08:00

although i got phobia to moon cake, but still wish u all

Happy Mid Autumn Festival!!

haiz, mid autumn festival makes me get a lot of flash back..owez do those sot sot thing with my cousins hahaha. Because we celebrated it like..going to national service. Have u ever saw a bunch of kids carying 灯笼 and go marching around thier house? WTF?!

happy sweet 16th

2008-09-10T18:52:00.012+08:00

sorry for not updating my blog. Everytime i tend to write something about my birthday, my brain terus went blank. its not that my birthday are not interesting, its TOO interesting that i don't know where to start off. plus, when those interesting or funny things come out from me, it'll become lame and boring. sigh-ness!

so, i decided just to upload the photos first. while the story, i dunno lar..if someday i got inspiration i MIGHT write it.

so, here's the credits!

the metal flutist. sexy~ [siaw, kuit, phui and lai]

cute monkey! [fiona n doraemon]

rhino! cht also got 1 exactly look like this [christopher]

The big head Dog [my k gor ah Foo]

hou sim arr [my account teacher]

bull dog?? [shue yin]

a kononnya nintendo DS card XD [nana]

sum of my fav anime pictures and a mechanic monkey [my dear papa]

wtf?! lam fung card?! and stitch [my dear mama]

a bottle of star [chan chan]

a hp bag [terence]

tart nanas and biskuit [nana again]

a very holy present [jasperin]

so touching weih [marcella]

she draw black cat for me! [melia]

last and not least

a nintendo wii from my parents!

and thanks for those who wished me!

my sons, queenie, daphne, melissa, pearl, stan, gene, james? teo, edwin, lao hao sean, sally, rachel, my sis and...*blanks =.=

owh yea! and thx for my lovely account tuition mates, shue yin, ming li, keay, chang chee ken, terence, ah chau gu and my tuition teacher, gave me a funny suprise party XD

really really really thank you!
hontouni~~ arigatou gazaimasu!!
kamzahamida?? =.=

remind me if i didn't give u credit!

nintendo wii

2008-09-06T12:14:00.005+08:00

well, i was researching some information or review about nintendo wii, as i might get 1 for my birthday present. however, my result was...

lol, im so speechless, just look at the video urself.

and it will even cause injuries?!

ok, i do not consider the injuries above was nintendo's fault. i think it was just those guy are too...big, no movement space, brutal or watever.

and i'm still confusing to buy nintendo wii or xbox 360. both are good lor..

transformer ngong video

2008-09-04T15:03:00.005+08:00

and NOOOOOOO

today i went home, saw my computer was no where!! perhaps somebody took it to repair. you know that feeling, juz like when somebody is important to you been sent to the emergency surgery room, and you can do nothing but just wait.

sigh...

forget bout dat, i found two kononnya transformer 2 trailer but came out with some very ngong videos. dui.

jason's birthday

2008-09-01T21:23:00.001+08:00

sep 1,

happy birthday to jason!

pc failure

2008-08-29T20:26:00.005+08:00

im too sad to study

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!

come on everybody,

lets mourn for my pity computer....

i dunno wheter i can save all my documents or not..

all the pictures, photos, videos, songs, manga, downloaded programmes, projects, chat logs..

ALL!!

i wanna cry liao T.T

__________________________________________________________________________

btw, happy sweet 16th birthday to daphne!!

promised pain

2008-08-26T15:58:00.003+08:00

the promised that i made for myself, i should accomplish it.

做完想做的, 是时候做该做的

servay

2008-08-23T21:27:00.002+08:00

so, what happen to Servay??

AIDIDI...

and my bad, for using my phone's lousy camera to capture these picture, like drawin sia =.=

weird piccolo

2008-08-21T22:57:00.005+08:00

the weirdest piccolo performance i ever watch.
well, 30 second is enough for you all, this performance is damn 9 minutes long sia. n its kinda boring =.=

fire

2008-08-21T11:46:00.004+08:00

people who live around penampang should know that the hypermarket, Servay was on fire yesterday night. poor market, i think they lost dunno how many billion or something for this fire, dui. and yet, it reminds me about my house+my father's shop was on fire as well when i was 5. although i cant remember anthing of it, but i still can sense the fearness, deep inside my heart.

HOW SAD T.T

alright forget about those sad stuff, that was the past and i should look forward to the future lol.

星光四少

2008-08-17T17:12:00.005+08:00

BEHOLD

yes, i just went to 星光四少's 签名会 this afternoon.
and yes, i went with my parents =.=

i must be craziiieee

ok, here's the brief story. After church, me n my parents terus rush to 1borneo n ha, we arrived about 12.40pm. its still kinda early, so we decided to eat at the restaurant beside the gourmet lane [the place where they held the activity].

my hong kong milk tea.

the food was not bad, they even use papaya to make soup =.=.
but my parents keep complaining that they put too much so called ajinamoto =.=llll which makes them lost their appetite to eat.

about 1.15pm, i smsed mei yin n find her. then we stand infront of the gate to wait the activity start. kononnya it start at 1.30pm~~~ we wait like almost 1 hour for it

ok forget about the time. i queue inside a cage so that my CD can be signed. n god damn it, they just sign the damn CD cover, which i left in my house. HELLO!? who knows that you will sign that damn CD cover instead of the CD case? punya pabi..

n please, i bought your CD last few month ago, thats mean im still supporting you guys even though you guys dont come to sabah, its hell lot better than those who bought on the spot ok?!

what to do? luckily there was a booth selling their CD n i asked my mom to buy me another version of it.

yoga! AHAHA

me on the stage

the CD that they signed

AHAHA, they happiest thing was i shaked thier hand!! AHAHAHA

dats all, i scare later school reopen gt ppl punch or throw japan's fried salmon to me =.=

Lok Kawi zoo trip

2008-08-15T17:56:00.017+08:00

AHHH!! WENT TO LOK KAWI ZOO WITH MY K-FAMILY TODAY!!! without my mother's permission =.=

u c..how excited they are..

ok, so here we are, in the lok kawi zoo. at 1st they said it was free if we wear school uniform. bt at the end? hohoho..cost RM4 each person.

group photo. [spot wong chik kien, he's wearing expensive brand's outfits from his head till his leg. i wonder what brand is his underwear. Adidas?? Guess???]

so, we're like sam ba lao, talking to those animals like they will understand.

a super handsome eagle

a not so super handsome eagle

owl.

white parrot?

they can speak like sabahan
"不要讲话了ehh"
"什么哦?"

cute birdie

another cute birdie

and a another cute birdie

sarawak's logo bird

deers

leopard

dunno what is this =.=

deer again???

poor elephant T.T

elephant plays water

and again

ostrich

some kind of reptile

green snakes

tortoise

crocordile

wierdo

the cute sun bear!

lazy ass tiger

orang utan

otter

looks like raccoon..

a young sui proboscis monkey..

horse

zebra

cows??

ok, thats all for the photos. blame myself for not recharging my camera T.T
and sorry because i dun really know all the animal's name.

as a conclusion,
the trip was damn shit awsome!!

BUT, i actually felt pity for those animals. first of all, their habitats are like...SO SMALL.
really lar, what can u do inside a cage like about a classroom big? they look so sad inside the cage.

and i really enjoyed during tracking in the botany farm. although it is very damn tiring, bt i think the journey worth it. crazy enough, i went for a second round haha.....ha..ha..=.=

ok thats it, tata

revision

2008-08-11T17:13:00.005+08:00

aww..marcella is so sweet!

me: *sleeping*

marcella: *shakes me* chai hui chet..have you read bio?

me: *sleep talking* ...dun ask me...i didn't revise at all...

marcella: ........(i forget what she said)

me: *wake up*....huh??

marcella: come on, i'll teach u..

me: O.O

haha, she teached me bio 6.1-6.2, n will continue tomorrow.
thats really made my day! haha, because my lazyness attack me for the last whole week n i havent really revise anything at all! earlier in the morning, i begged popo to teach me history, u noe wat she said?

popo: u see ar..*point at the words* ............

popo:................................................

popo: u read yourself.

me: .......(want to throw japan's salmon to her!)

n hey nana, hope u get well soon!

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my son said that i'm....

a dinosaur,

a female pig

i forgot others.

wow, I'm so speechless.

mickey mouse mp3

2008-08-10T19:19:00.007+08:00

i never realize 'omg' is my trademark. =.=

anywayz, my mother just bought me a mickey mouse mp3 from the pc fair!!!

its red ok? looks kinda pink in the photo. damn sexy!
cost Rm69. THX MOMMY!! although i failed to rasuah u to buy me a camera/pc XD

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活了那么久, 才发觉还是亲情最可靠. 友情这个字, 顿时变得好陌生. 这不是他们的错, 错在我不懂得如何去和他人团契.

happy birthday!!

2008-08-08T19:01:00.009+08:00

Happy Sweeeeeet 16 birthday to my beloved friend,

NANA

HHAAAPPPYYYYY BBBBIIIIIIRRRTTTTHHHHDAAAAYYYYY!!!

hahaha...our suprise party was kinda lame, but still it was a success.
although for some reason she cried, nt happy tears but sad tears. babe i know how you felt, i hate being left behind as well.

helloooo??? i know she's an oddball, so what? that is who she is, don't make her sad for some stupid reason, especially on her special day [you know who you are]. pls, she treat u as her good friend/best friend, n u? y would you ignore her almost all the time. ha, what if the one that u thought that is important in your life do that to you? for God sakes, i would not let anyone hurt my beloved friend.

n Nana, cry is NOT a sin. you should cry when you feel you should. ignore those backstabs, there was a quote by i-forget-who : crying when you need to cry is another way to show strength

antivirus

2008-08-03T17:02:00.007+08:00

i never like antivirus. or u can say i hate it very much. I MEAN VERY.

a few months ago, i remembered that chang sin fung had introduced me some antivirus like avira, avasf, avg, wat free internet security suite, bla bla bla bla bla.

for my computer sake's, i don't wanna to lost all of my precious memory, so juz now i decided to try it.

i downloaded avira, as he say the detection rates was 92%. o.O

cute logo it have. but zzz, as soon as i finish install it, my pc terus lag gi. and i was like what the fuck?????

so i restarted it, and as soon as the window start up, dit dit dit dit dit dit dit dit dit dit.....sumthing like 10++ windows pop up and say it detect some error or virus. i close it one by one, then it reappear like about after 0.5 second?? ciu, after a few minutes fight with the pop-up windows i only saw got a check box in the window writing 'do the same thing to the same kind error or virus'

ok.., after i checked it, yay! no more those nga len windows, but hey, here comes the virus scanner. at first i thought it was nothing, cuz their website say that their scan rate was 20% faster than others antivirus scan.

so i decide to take a nap, manatau...after 3 hours...

only 42% nia???

shit, im stubborn kind of person, so i stop it cuz this scan thing really makes my computer lag dao bao!!!!!

bt still, i have to thank it, cuz now i only noe dat my computer contain......99 detection????

omo! is that consider as serious? n i haven finish scanning it. if i did....*faints..

test..

2008-08-02T16:19:00.003+08:00

so here's my result.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

[no idea]

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

[well..nt sure..]

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

[perhaps...]

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

[yup..]

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

[yup yup]

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

[ok..]

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

[zzz...]

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

[yup yup yup]

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

[......]

reborn..

2008-08-02T14:48:00.007+08:00

*bufffs

taa daaaaaa!!

hi there again! WELCOME TO MY NEW BLOG!!

i know i know. i know that I'm crazy to deleted my previous blog. i mean i already did it twice!
i thought that nobody will visit my blog cuz urgh... many people complained that my blog were kinda dull.

just words

words

words

and words!!

watever. i finally realize that i actually got some readers after chikkien told me he used to visit my blog.... err...daily or sumthing.. [correct me if im wrong]

so yeah. I'm back.

exam is just around d corner, n as usual, i haven revise anything yet.
not like my friends, they're turning into bookworms recently.
hugging books to anywhere, they even stay back to have group study.

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what the hell?!